I totally get the panic attacks from the MRI torture device. I did have a panic attack the last time someone put me in one. Thought I would crawl right out of my skin like a molting snake. Fortunately I warned the tech in advance and as soon as it started and I began thrashing around, she took me out. Why in god’s name do they make those spaces so small? What particularly gets me is how narrow the space is top to bottom. I feel like the entire hospital is sitting on my chest!
So glad you are feeling better now and hope you continue to improve.🥰
I can tolerate mris no biggie. Those r fine. However, the minute I’m poked or prodded, or cut into, shite hits the fan n before I know it im neck deep in the panic attacks.
Glad ur better! Never thought I’d spend 3 weeks in a hospital n give no fucks about it. I mean I was so sick, they asked me if I missed being out, n I genuinely didn’t. I had been in hospitals as a teen decades ago for depression, n desperately wanted out. I felt imprisoned pretty early on. This time, I had a bed, telly, 3 square means n for a week - dilaudid. (Which felt like 30 seconds of sheer magic going thru the Iv up the spine) Ok there were daily blood tests which I did not appreciate, especially as they ran out of room to do them. That was October 2023, I got out just before Halloween. I’ve noticed in the past few months that the blood pressure has finally started to go back down to normal. The body is healing. For me, that life threatening altercation with the uterus made me feel oddly calm in hospital. I think I had been so sick for a good 2 months prior, there was no fight left. N by that, I mean no resistance to knowing what needed to happen. I raised the white flag n said ok, do what u need to. I had resisted getting things taken care of until I just…couldn’t any longer. U reach the dead end. I still have other issues mostly likely as a result of what carnage took place in there previously, but I’m far better. I hope you are too! I hope u didn’t suffer too badly!
I know about being that sick and that weak and just having to surrender to the whole process. I've gotten there myself before. I'm beginning to do better now, thank you for asking. I'm trying to be very gentle with myself this time, even staying away from stressful headlines and too much news because I feel like I've been right on the edge of a complete burnout for so long and I know I'm fragile right now.
Ur welcome! That’s good. For me, I have been sick, but I was never THAT bad. It was extremely shocking for me to be so calm about it.
I hear you n god i feel that. I think it’s good for all of us right now to avoid too much news. I’m doing the same, because it’s all too overwhelming, especially when we might be extra sensitive to stuff.
I’m learning to finally gift meself the love n care I’ve tried to give others. Not a self centred type of thing, just allowing meself some grace as well. Learning to let meself enjoy things again, instead of forcing meself to push the body to limits n the like. Sometimes, getting sick is a sort of wake up call.
So glad you are well enough to be at home. Take it easy. Remember emotional labor (like this column) and mental strain (gestures at everything) take just as much out of us as physical activity.
Thank you my friend. 😊 Yes, I would even say that emotional labor is even harder than physical labor for me these days. I'm just so overwrought all the damn time that it's exhausting. I'm largely staying away from the headlines and I've stepped back from worrying about any kind of publishing schedule right now because I want to make sure I'm keeping myself well enough to stay away from the hospital. That was a five day reminder of how much it sucks.
I only just now opened and read this. Glad you made it home, your family needs you there.
I never had anxiety attacks until I was in the hospital after some heart attacks. Nobody would take me seriously, so I went to a dispensary. It took some trial and error, but I've got my Indica edibles dialed in now.
I'm doing a bit better today. Still struggling with edema that makes everything very uncomfortable. As long as I keep being better than the day before I think I'm doing alright. ☺️
My son had the same condition a few years ago - he was unable to go through the op. If you want advice on how we managed with herbs and OTC meds, let me know? I can say, if you take any kind of pain relief, you will need to take some kind of laxative to prevent this from recurring. Also, you aren't 'fat' you are bloated - water rentention. I know it doesn't feel like it. ((Hugs))
I was about to text you when I came across this essay, blue. Life, and our bodies, can be mysterious and ugly sometimes, but I’m hopeful you will get through this quickly. Sending a hug 🫂
Thanks Kathi 😁. I'm doing everything right this time with my recovery, so I'm hoping to get through it all in record time. Good to hear from you my dear. ❤️🫂
Glad that you’re home.Dorothy knew that there’s no place like it. I hope you continue on your healing journey. Positive thoughts sent your way. 😃♥️
I totally get the panic attacks from the MRI torture device. I did have a panic attack the last time someone put me in one. Thought I would crawl right out of my skin like a molting snake. Fortunately I warned the tech in advance and as soon as it started and I began thrashing around, she took me out. Why in god’s name do they make those spaces so small? What particularly gets me is how narrow the space is top to bottom. I feel like the entire hospital is sitting on my chest!
So glad you are feeling better now and hope you continue to improve.🥰
I'm always so glad when someone else understands how I feel about it lol. Thank you for the kind words Saralyn 😊❤️
I’m terribly claustrophobic. I know exactly how you feel. I hope being home helps you heal, and keep popping those gummies, baby.
Lol... Way ahead of you Sherry 😉😄
I can tolerate mris no biggie. Those r fine. However, the minute I’m poked or prodded, or cut into, shite hits the fan n before I know it im neck deep in the panic attacks.
"I'm working on getting this painful water in my legs to drain out by keeping them elevated."
I wish I could sponsor lympathic massage for you, but I am on a job hunt right now.
If you can find a massage therapist trained in lympathic drainage, it can make a huge difference fast.
You are in my prayers. Glad you made it home, without an MRI.
Me too. 😄 Thank you my friend.
Oh welcome home. My best to you 🫂
Thank you, dear Hannah. 😊😻
Glad ur better! Never thought I’d spend 3 weeks in a hospital n give no fucks about it. I mean I was so sick, they asked me if I missed being out, n I genuinely didn’t. I had been in hospitals as a teen decades ago for depression, n desperately wanted out. I felt imprisoned pretty early on. This time, I had a bed, telly, 3 square means n for a week - dilaudid. (Which felt like 30 seconds of sheer magic going thru the Iv up the spine) Ok there were daily blood tests which I did not appreciate, especially as they ran out of room to do them. That was October 2023, I got out just before Halloween. I’ve noticed in the past few months that the blood pressure has finally started to go back down to normal. The body is healing. For me, that life threatening altercation with the uterus made me feel oddly calm in hospital. I think I had been so sick for a good 2 months prior, there was no fight left. N by that, I mean no resistance to knowing what needed to happen. I raised the white flag n said ok, do what u need to. I had resisted getting things taken care of until I just…couldn’t any longer. U reach the dead end. I still have other issues mostly likely as a result of what carnage took place in there previously, but I’m far better. I hope you are too! I hope u didn’t suffer too badly!
I know about being that sick and that weak and just having to surrender to the whole process. I've gotten there myself before. I'm beginning to do better now, thank you for asking. I'm trying to be very gentle with myself this time, even staying away from stressful headlines and too much news because I feel like I've been right on the edge of a complete burnout for so long and I know I'm fragile right now.
Ur welcome! That’s good. For me, I have been sick, but I was never THAT bad. It was extremely shocking for me to be so calm about it.
I hear you n god i feel that. I think it’s good for all of us right now to avoid too much news. I’m doing the same, because it’s all too overwhelming, especially when we might be extra sensitive to stuff.
I’m learning to finally gift meself the love n care I’ve tried to give others. Not a self centred type of thing, just allowing meself some grace as well. Learning to let meself enjoy things again, instead of forcing meself to push the body to limits n the like. Sometimes, getting sick is a sort of wake up call.
So glad you are well enough to be at home. Take it easy. Remember emotional labor (like this column) and mental strain (gestures at everything) take just as much out of us as physical activity.
Thank you my friend. 😊 Yes, I would even say that emotional labor is even harder than physical labor for me these days. I'm just so overwrought all the damn time that it's exhausting. I'm largely staying away from the headlines and I've stepped back from worrying about any kind of publishing schedule right now because I want to make sure I'm keeping myself well enough to stay away from the hospital. That was a five day reminder of how much it sucks.
I only just now opened and read this. Glad you made it home, your family needs you there.
I never had anxiety attacks until I was in the hospital after some heart attacks. Nobody would take me seriously, so I went to a dispensary. It took some trial and error, but I've got my Indica edibles dialed in now.
Flipped a few Ameros your way, hope it helps.
Thank you for your kind words and your financial assistance my friend. ❤️😻
Oh BluePNWcats! I am SO sorry to hear you've been going through all this. I am very glad to hear you made it out the otherside.
Oh bless you, dear heart, I hope you are feeling better soon.
Thank you my dear friend. I'll be back up to speed soon I'm sure. ☺️🫂😻
How are you today? <3 This can be managed, even beaten. You’ve got this.
I'm doing a bit better today. Still struggling with edema that makes everything very uncomfortable. As long as I keep being better than the day before I think I'm doing alright. ☺️
My son had the same condition a few years ago - he was unable to go through the op. If you want advice on how we managed with herbs and OTC meds, let me know? I can say, if you take any kind of pain relief, you will need to take some kind of laxative to prevent this from recurring. Also, you aren't 'fat' you are bloated - water rentention. I know it doesn't feel like it. ((Hugs))
I was about to text you when I came across this essay, blue. Life, and our bodies, can be mysterious and ugly sometimes, but I’m hopeful you will get through this quickly. Sending a hug 🫂
Thanks Kathi 😁. I'm doing everything right this time with my recovery, so I'm hoping to get through it all in record time. Good to hear from you my dear. ❤️🫂
Get some gummies! 🥰
Yes ma'am! 😄 ❤️
Hope that your recovery goes quickly and well. I can't send much, but have sent a few Ameros your way.
I saw that! 😊 Thank you so much Linda! I appreciate you. ❤️